I’m cynical about LOVE.

Friday, March 18, 2011

Assalammualaikum and Hi Gorgeous!

[I wrote this entry due to the lovey-dovey atmosphere in our campus. No offense]
"LOVE" in chinese character (i guess - because i google-ed.)

Love come and goes.  

What is love? Why do we fall in love? How can we get into love?
Oh, Love is pretty. Love is disgust. 

Love brings joys. Love brings peace. Love also can bring hostility.

 “I Love You.” 

It is like a magic word. But sometime also can be a joke - to insensitive homo-sapiens.  Trust me!

But, as we always came across to those whom said “I love You”, It is depends on how do you DEFINE what do you mean by LOVE in there. Creating the lovey-dovey atmospheres in your everyday-daily life, it’s nothing wrong. The people think its wrong is wrong, actually.
Oh, c’mon… every each of homo-sapiens (us) loves to be loved. No matter that love comes from whom. 

I’m writing this lovey-dovey thingy not to think sarcastically to those whom has change their “single” status to “In relationship” at Facebook info. NO!
I love to know that actually, because I love to see my friends happy. 

Ok…ok…let get into LOVE.

As usual, I did a short questionnaire at Formspring and at my Facebook status.

“What the first thing come out from ur mind if you read or see the word; “LOVE” ”

>> Mr. TOKhairul;

>>Miss GadisBerstokinBelang;

>>Mr. P. Newman;
::The heart symbol 

>>Miss H. Senget
::Honest, trust, believing each other, romantic. n family... that things.. lot of things came out of my mind... =)

>> Miss Jess Clare

::Heart shape

>> Mr. Alhadiey

:: (my heart is blossom like a flower right now.)

>> Mr. Sya Fie E
:: is all about sex! (WHAT?!!)

Some of those answers are in Bahasa. So I’ve translated it into English. This is so general question. And for you guys, what come out from you mind?

Honestly, what come out from my mind? Err… NOTHING.

Oh, ok. I smirked. *sigh*

Not to say I’ve hated it so much. But you know… 


When you’ve got into relationship, and you failed, you’ve try so hard, and again, you failed. And you got into a new loving girl, and you love her and love her and love her. But then, by made one mistake, ONE mistake not a BIG mistake, your relationship is again down to 0%. 

And I’m wondering, is her loves me as how much I loved her with all of my heart with no fullstop on it? Or she just love me on the spot because I’ve propose to her?
Like I’ve said before: “Love come and goes”

Easy come, easy go
That's just how you live, oh
Take, take, take it all,
But you never give
-      Grenade by Bruno Mars

Erm, maybe it is because they still in afraid by their friends’ experience. Or maybe they’re too careful. Let’s forgive and don’t forget. If you forgive and you forget, I bet that, you’ll never learn from the first experience that you’ve already forgave. Don’t you,no? It’s up to you, mate.

What I’m trying to say here is, do learn from your experience first then you learn from others. But in certain things it may be different. But, what the heck, this is your life, why would ruin your own life by listen to them whom is in heartbroken and hated LOVE so much? [like me?,No.] The concept may be same but the problem is different.
Keep your chances. Ignite your love to the fullest. 

But don’t get too obsess possess your love till you do something that against your Religion.
And, LOVE yourself first and not to forget your Family. Then you can hold your lover in your arm with family blessings. That is the most important thing. 

Anyone who is smirk reading this entry, why you hate LOVE so much? 

Love is natural. Love is blissful. 

Oh, maybe you don’t have a chance to feel to be loved by someone? So, try it. 

Don’t be like me. I SMIRKED, remember?

This is our last entry, by the way.
Hope to see you again. Hope so.

credit photos - Google images

Mother : Full of love

Friday, March 11, 2011

Assalammualaikum and Hi Gorgeous!

this entry dedicated to a young-mother that dump a small baby in the trash, river, mosque, road and wherever else that you guys read in newspaper.

honestly, i almost cried when read those news in the newspaper. how come they're so mean!!
you are A Mother to that baby...how could you do that...what a devil are you!! *i'm pissed*

this sequence of photos i took during the raining monsoon in my village. and these photos i took in front of my house. and even they are just a snail (or in colloquial "Siput Babi"), i touched by the mother of the Snail bring 2 of her baby to the safer places out from flood area.

do check those photos:


even a snail knew how to appreciate the offspring, but a human that have a genius brains and a heart still do those such horrible thing!!

there are devil inside that need to be killed! but not our power to do it..it all depends on themselves. we just can pray for the sake of dumped baby's future.pity them.

don't just say you are love them, but the most important things is, PROVE IT!

My Dear Friend: Read Slowly...

Have you ever wondered which hurts the most?
Saying something and wishing you hadn't?, or
Saying nothing and wishing you had?

I guess the most important things are the hardest things to say. Don't be afraid to tell someone you love them. If you do, they might break your heart...if you don't, you might break theirs.

Have u ever decided not 2 become a couple because you were so afraid of losing what you already had with that person?

Your heart decides whom it likes and whom it doesn't.
You can't tell your heart what to do. It does it on its own........when you least suspect it, or even when you don't want it to.

Have you ever wanted to love someone with everything you had, but that other person was too afraid to let you?

Too many of us stay walled up because we are too afraid to care too much...for fear that the other person does not care as much, or even at all.

Have you ever denied your feelings for someone because your fear of rejection was too hard to handle?

We tell lies when we are afraid... afraid of what we
don't know, afraid of what others will think, afraid of what will be found out about us.
But every time we tell a lie, the thing we fear grows stronger.

Life is all about risks and it requires you to jump.

Don't be a person who has to look back and wonder what they would have done, or could have had.

* What would you do if every time you fell in love you had to say good-bye?*

*What would you do if every time you wanted someone they would never be there?*

*What would you do if your best friend died tomorrow and you never got to tell them how you felt?*
(even if it is that you don't care anymore)

*What would you do if you loved someone more than ever and you couldn't have them?*

*What would you do if you never got the chance to say I am friends with all of my family and they know I love them?*

People live, but people die. I want to tell you that
you are a friend.

If you died tomorrow (God Forbid)

You would be in my heart.
Would I be in yours?

We might be best friends one year, pretty good friends the next year, don't talk that often the next, and don't want to talk at all the year after that.

So, I just wanted to say, even if I never talk to you again in my life, you are special to me and you have made a difference in my life,

I look up to you, respect you, truly cherish you , most of all I CARE about friends

Remember, everyone needs a friend someday you might feel like you have NO FRIENDS at all, just remember this entry and take comfort in knowing  somebody out there cares about you and always will..

I care about YOU my dearest friend!

my classmate

Assalammualaikum and Hi Gorgeous!

well...Oh well...

this topic made my keep smiling. and smiling. and smiling.

Oh,sssshhhh!! it supposed to be secret ,right?

ok..i named my classmate that have very interesting character to me as X and as usual X always recognize as unknown. and it'll remain unknown.

X always make me want to laugh, oh not just me actually, the whole class. X is very kind-hearted people. and i thank X for giving me the inspiration in pursue whatever ways that i want to take. X look like an ordinary people. but X nice to people. well, not to say X is well known in MICET, but X is still X.

actually, i'm not sure whether i already know much about X. but like i said, X nice to everybody!

X is good in studies. never care much what people said.
but sometime X can give a heart-attack to people with the attitude. but it just kidding. i already knew it...

X look so happy-go-lucky person. and whenever there's some problem, X never get the other people into it. i guess. because i never know X well. because i just met X in 2 semester. not even a closed friend. just a friend. when we meet, smile and say hi. that's all. but the character of X make me wonder, how X manage to keep all people around want to chat with X.

maybe that's the special about X. 

who ever you are, X...
keep doing the thing that make you happy.

Oh..Oh...to those people that so sarcastic about X,
get to know people first, before you can judge! OK.

X is remain X.
if you think you're X, email me..hahaha

You Are Not Alone..

Thursday, March 10, 2011

"Background music - Loveholic (Meari)"

You are 'You Are Not Alone'
You feel the loneliness
You are alone

People surround you
People talk to you
People joke with you
People walk with you

and yet,

They claim to be your closest one

You are not alone


You always feel the loneliness
No matter how
You are always alone

Whenever you are
Wherever you are
Whatever you are
However you are

You are all alone
You of all people are alone

You Are Not Alone,

The sunset awaits you
The sunrise awaits you
The wind approaches you
The land wants you to step on
The air wants you to inhale
They are waiting for you

But a single loneliness calls you
You get caught
You answered

You are trapped within the loneliness
He wants to befriends with you
You are the one he wants to be with
He needs you around
He refuses to let you go
As long as you keep your words deep inside..

Just to
Pretend he is not alone
Just to
Have someone to talk with

He doesn't wants to be alone,
Just like you

But you
You of all people
Pretend that everyone abandons you
Pretend that you are nobody to people around you
Pretend nothing would happens

Move on you 'You Are Not Alone' dear..
Move on.. Everything await you..
You are not alone my dear 'You Are Not Alone'
I missed you

The End of The World - Agnetha Faltskog

You should listen to this song..

Humming yourself with this song..Dedicate this song to anyone you like..Your parents, boyfriend/girlfriend, siblings, friends and even your pets..


Why does the sun go on shining?
Why does the sea rush to shore?
Don't they know it's the end of the world?
'Cause you don't love me anymore

Why do the birds go on singing?
Why do the stars glow above?
Don't they know it's the end of the world?
It ended when I lost your love
I wake up in the morning and I wonder
Why everything's the same as it was

I can't understand
No I can't understand
How life goes on the way it does

Oh why does my heart go on beating?
Why do these eyes of mine cry?
Don't they know it's the end of the world?
It ended when you said goodbye


(Why does my heart go on beating?
Why do these eyes of mine cry?)
Don't they know it's the end of the world?
It ended when you said goodbye

A Positive Thing that I'm Going to Do During the Mid-Semester Break is...

To learn new songs in term of instrumental skills (guitar).
To be ready enough for battle of the bands that will be held at MICET.

Seems like I'm going to spend the whole break with playing guitar. I'm not sure I'm capable enough to do so because as we all know (you readers) anything could happens once you step at your homeland..Guess what..?? Duh~~..I don't have any idea..But seriously, something might come up just to scratch out the wish (playing guitar) and turn out, i could be end up doing anything else..Sigh again ~~..Owh come on..!! That is just sick..You know what, I can't end up like that once I get myself at my homeland..Lets see what I can do to keep that wish remains solid with me..Ehehe..First!! Buy electric guitar, amplifier and effect..(sound like hundreds RM)..But its ok..I'll save for it later but surely, I'll get it..Second!! No over sleep in the whole morning.. Because I could use most of the time playing guitar and learn new songs (dedicated enough for me -- perhaps)..If else, if I wake up when the sun up high, I'll waste the whole morning, dreaming alpacas and mouse lemurs that out of nowhere..But it sounds interesting..Nah, forget it..Back to main topic..Third!! No games at all..It'll drive me insane and half crazy because of giving full commitment towards it..NO!! Come on, come on..Fourth!! Fuh! fourth already..Perhaps, I should help my mom babysitting those three 3 kids..Sigh ~~..Don't underestimate me, ok..I'm qualified enough..I've done that before..Ehem~~.. That's because I'll not end up on couch with laziness and become sleepy head..That might ruin my plan on playing guitar energetic and 'racing-spirit' spirit..Ehehe..What's this..Fifth!! and could be the last one..I should never doing stupid things during this oncoming mid-term break..Those stupid things might out of reach but like I said before, anything could happens once you step at your homeland, being very eager and joyful to enjoy mid-term break successfully..Ehehe..

Am I really gonna do all those things..?
Think guys, think..

So long friends..


Students Should Vote During 'Students' Election' Because...

Sunday, February 20, 2011


It's because students are meant to do so since the first time they register to pursue their study..It's synergy..Doesn't matter whether they are voting with full-hearted or empty-hearted, they are still have to play their role as voters..

(Respond to figure above ==> Yeaaahh!! I'm ready...but for sure, voting for the real one only)

Back to the topic, sometimes there are students who being very skeptical towards so called voting-in-university because they think the consequences would always be the same at the end of the day..Which means, this kind of activity more or less just only to replace or to find the new qualified candidate..It's not more than that..This is the common sense among students who never give a Pocket-Full-of-Sunshine for voting purpose..They never care who got elected, never mind about what progression the elected candidate would make and never want to know who gonna be main head after the vote..

In my opinion, students should just vote anyone who might bring at least slight differences for them. Who knows, sooner or later, the progression may come out better in the leadership of that elected candidate. Besides, having that experiences by taking part in voting could realize students how important to take that opportunity. It might not ends during student-time, but until they are off in adulthood. On that time, every single vote is worthy to be brought up. At least they know how it feel to vote for their right, not only for the candidate but for all people.

No matter which candidate might get elected, what differences they will bring up, male or female, how good their skills in leadership and whatever it is, students should play their role as voters. Give a best shot towards the voting purposes. There is should be something in their mind that when they are voting for their chosen one, it is like giving a chance or opportunity to a candidate. Even though it is only one vote from a voter, it will make a very huge chances whether he/she wins or loses the election. That's all. The thing student should do is, make comparison among candidates (do not pick up randomly), choose the better one or 'your friend' and whatever it is, do your right as a voter. Who knows, you might be nominated to be the head of 'everything'.

(p/s : for those who didnt vote during the last election in Micet, u got me as well..i didnt either..forgot to do so)

Great Leaders are Not Born, They are Made..

Saturday, February 19, 2011

There are many great leaders all around the world..They are capable of doing anything by only bring up their golden speeches, showing off their courage to embrace the responsibilities on their shoulders or by pushing a button to blows everybody's mind (mind here means flesh and brain).

Whatever these great leaders are going to be, are they born or made to be the head of people??

What do I think??

I think great leaders are made and for sure they were born first so they can experience the meaning of life..So I say Yes to it that great leaders are made..

Great leaders are not only the one who were once ruled the world, drop off a bomb in Hiroshima and Nagasaki, had an-half-of-the-world-empire and so on so forth but they are the one who could lead other people to successful deeds, the one who could be as a role-play to one's skill improvement and can embrace others need in term of certain ways.

Usually, these great leaders didn't even think about being head of a leadership from the starter because their actions are based on mind logical thinking, knowledgeable in every ways like know-it-all matters and have that particular specialties to come out with actions. They are all just ordinary people but the differences they have made turn out to be the one that will make them leaders. Lets make examples from ancient great leader such as Alexander The Great.

Who is Alexander The Great??

Alexander The Great as his real name was Alexander III of Macedon was a king of Macedonia which located in the north eastern region of Greece. He had the entire Persian Empire conquered and his leadership in battles has expanded his own empire from the Adriatic sea to the Indus River and stretching even bigger towards lands all around the world.

The point is even Alexander was an ordinary kid but after he had his lessons in many fields and gain valuable knowledge. After the death of his father, Philip II of Macedon, he succeeded him to the throne and having a very large army strength of his father's previous empire. At age thirteen, he got his lesson from a tutor named Aristotle who was a very visionary person on that time and yet, that was how the great leader (Alexander The Great) made of.

What do you think about Adolf Hitler?

Who do you think he was back then before he served in a Bavarian regiment for German during World War I?

He had very bitter and rough childhood time. He has been abandoned by his father Alois Hitler who served in a Austrian regiment. Adolf Hitler had attitude problems which caused him expelled from schools he has entered. Since his family often moved from places to places, he had to go to different schools but because of his lack of attitude, he got kicked out.

Adolf Hitler loved to paint and everything related to arts in his earlier life of childhood and adulthood. But he as been rejected by Academy of Fine Arts Vienna with the citing "unfitness to painting".

In a few days I myself knew that I should some day become an architect. To be sure, it was an incredibly hard road; for the studies I had neglected out of spite at the Realschule were sorely needed. One could not attend the Academy's architectural school without having attended the building school at the Technic, and the latter required a high-school degree. I had none of all this. The fulfillment of my artistic dream seemed physically impossible.

- Adolf Hitler -

As we know, Adolf Hitler was a tyrant who brought up the Holocaust revolutionary that eliminated almost all Jews (approximately 6 millions) because of his hatred towards Jews and after his antisemitism act. That was all started when he influenced by Martin Luther's On the Jews and their Lies and during World War I after he joined Bavarian regiment thus, made him as a tyrant after he got elected to be the leader of Nazi organization. As conclusion, he was just an ordinary kid who loved arts and architectures.

So, think again whether great leaders are born, or made to be..

Birth Order Trait..

Friday, February 18, 2011

Does it occur to us that it really determines one's characteristic..?

"As an older sister, I deserve to inherit the wealth of our parents"
"He can get everything he wants from his parents while his older sister worked hard to get something"
"I got our family's matters on my shoulder," said an older brother to his younger sister.
"I can handle these problems 'coz I'm matured enough than you, little bro"
"She can never beat his older sister in IQ test"
"Azmi, give those toys to Elma. You're so calculative in everything with your little sister," said mom.
"Why I feel neglected by our parents? Is it because I'm a middle child among you guys?"

Now, what do you think??

In my opinion, in some way and some how, the birth order trait do really plays its role among siblings. Sometimes, with these characteristics we can notice in older, middle and younger siblings, we can determine what kind of their habits, what they do routinely, what level of their mind thinking, toward which way of their interactions and et cetera et cetera. In other hand, they might always follow this kind of nature order in themselves without even noticed.

This kind of thing usually depends on many ways. It might be the child's growing time and environment, family conditions including siblings, friends, perhaps the toys, the birth of another siblings and the important matter is how their parents expose them in learning and to get knowledge slowly from a little-cute kid. This happens and might exist in everybody's childhood. These factors or natural orders (birth order) might be the one which determine them to become accordingly to their birth order.

Usually the older siblings act like the ways they used to be are normal since their parents teach and need them what to be like:

"Azmi, your mom is working and I need to go out just for a while. Please look out for your little brother"
"Fahmi, take your little sister for a shower. Please clean her up. I need to cook for dinner"
"Papa got sick today and your mama went to groceries for a while. Could you please bring me something to drink"

At the end of the day, they'll just get used to it, taking good care of other family members, being dependent and learn new things out by themselves. Whatever it is, older siblings will have natural feelings that they have that particular responsibilities which might lead them to become mature, flexible in every way of acts and et cetera et cetera.  

While for middle and younger siblings, their characteristics can be determined either by the same factors as older siblings had became or by the natural order (birth order). Whatever they are gonna be, there are always the causes and the consequences in themselves regarding every single factor. It is all the same. Sometimes, when these middle and younger siblings have their older siblings to take care of them in every way, they will always feel comfortable and pleasant. So they will just get used to it and happy by becoming that way.

However, sometimes it is also natural and common if the birth order trait doesn't fit accordingly towards children. Some ways or another, the children turn out to be different which mean don't become exactly like their own birth order. As I mentioned earlier, it depends on many ways. The characteristic of younger sibling can be exactly like older sibling's and otherwise for the characteristic of older brother.

There are reasons why older, middle and younger act that way, the way of their birth order. Their characteristics are not something that permanent, cannot be changed or some kind of cursed-like matters in themselves because whatever birth order they are in, sooner or later they'll realize what is the most important matter among them rather than being the older, the middle and the younger.

Thank you for reading this late-posted-entry..

Sentimentalism or Love

Monday, February 14, 2011

Assalammualaikum and Hello Gorgeous!

SENTIMENTALISM, or in other word, romance longing, make itself known most often under the guise “love”. 

There are lots definitions of love. And there is a major different between “Love” and “Friends”. Be careful on what side you choose for. 
Love also has different types of love.

The romantic nationalist claim to love their country, or we may consider a men in love with a girl which he turns into the sole focus of his life: What leads him to write a poetry saying “I Love You,” and to become obsessed with her to the point of suicide, and, in fact to “divinize” her, in the notion of “Love”.

 Pppffftt… peh-lis!! (Please!!)

As for the majority of people, they think that every emotion to which the name of “Love” is ascribed is virtuous or honorable, pure and even holy, and the example of romantic longing, such as what mentioned above are perfectly acceptable.

Love is indeed a very wonderful emotion, but it is important to distinguish whether that love is real or not, and to consider to whom / it directed to, and what sentiments it is founded on.

Love is to be shown to those who deserve it. Those who did not deserve it are not to be loved. 

We are even to distance ourselves from them emotionally or at least, to not feel inclined towards them. But those who deserve love deserve it because of their desirable quality.

Someday, you'll realize how much you cared about her/he & how amazing she/he really was. And when that day comes, she/he will be walking with the guy/girl who already knew they was.

The only being deserve absolute loves is God, Who created us all. God bought us into existence, proffered us with the countless blessings we enjoyed, show us the way and promise us the everlasting paradise. He helps us out of anxiety and graciously hears our calls. It is He who feeds us until we are satisfied, cures us when we ill, and then restore our spirit.

Oh, maybe this is too religious or Islamic. But, yes. This is the truth, right? And when you in trouble or felt anxiety to Whom you are referring to? To your Boy/Girl friend? OH! Don’t be ridiculous.

Trust me on this;

When you want to talk to God,you should pray and say prayers.When you want to hear God talking to you, you should read the Quran.

And again;

Love is to be shown to those who deserve it. Those who did not deserve it are not to be loved.

And don’t fall in love with the beauty only. Deep inside also needs to be considered. And if you really think that you are very good looking, make sure you are good looking from inside too. Because “There are more than what meet the eyes

And I always been labelled as “Loser” because of can’t find any girlfriend,
then, what the heck wrong with you, man?! There is a lots other things that much more crucial than romance. Don’t get too obsessed to fall in love. Love is wonderful and love also can be dangerous. Be smart. Don’t take the wrong step. Think before you act not instead. 


Unless you’re making up before married on Valentine’s Day (as for Muslim) and that is wrong. Very, actually. (that's my opinion. Don't get to obsessed)

I don't care if there's Valentine's Day or what.. it's still the same day for me. Oh well, "I am Loser, aite??" 

Alright, let talk Love among us-the teenagers / adult.

I did some questionnaire to my friends on formspring.me

What do they think if we fall in love with our own best friend? And such investigation should make clear the difference between the sentimentalism that lead to preserved love, and real love. 

Q: Is it true, if we fall in love and we had an every day lovey-dovey with our love ones, or in other word that, we fell in love with our best friend. Does it consider as a major disaster?

A: The feeling is not there (i guess?) I mean, she's or he’s already your best friend, and when you are cross over that boundary, is it possible to remain friends when the relationship's over? 

--Mr. H

A: Its gonna be major disaster only if there is some crack on it.

- TOKhairul (Mr. K)

A: As for me, it’s a YES, but not to say it is wrong. A friend is a second greater gift after our family even the are easy to find, but when it comes to lovey dovey thingy, the main concern is to have some temporary romance feeling until death do us apart for both sides. Fall in lovewith our own best friend, it’s ok. But does they account as “friend” again is the relationship cracked? And the worst nightmare is you will lost both of them- Love and Friend.

-Mr. P.Newman

A: ok, this is my opinion. I did that when I was in my form 2. Maybe I was still very foolish at that time, so it ended badly. I never spoke to him for the rest of my schooling years and until now, I can speak to him, but not like before (as best friend) because it’s awkward. Indeed. But if that person willing to take the risk, why not, but you have to bear with the consequence. No, No, No. scratches those all.
This will be my answer. IT DEPENDS! :)

--Miss Nath.

A: based on rationality, there is nothing wrong with it. Who the heck that said fall in love with our own best friend is a major disaster? YES, If we fall in love with our own best friend and you guys like gambling with you own friendship relationship, but NO, it is not a major disaster to fall in love to your own buddy. Humpty dumpty sat on the wall. Read the full article HERE

-Miss Gadis Berstokin Belang

Oh, maybe I've experience on this thingy. but at last, we make a MAJOR decision, and we stick to BEST FRIEND. 

SO, What say you? dare to fall in love with your best friend? 

Don't afraid to fall in love...


Have you ever wondered which hurts the most?
Saying something and wishing you hadn't? Or Saying nothing and wishing you had?

I guess the most important things are the hardest things to say. Don't be afraid to tell someone you love them. If you do, they might break your heart...if you don't, you might break theirs.

Have you ever decided not to become a couple because you were so afraid of losing what you already had with that person?

Your heart decides whom it likes and whom it doesn't. You can't tell your heart what to do. It does it on its own. When you least suspect it, or even when you don't want it to.

Have you ever wanted to love someone with everything you had, but that other person was too afraid to let you?

Too many of us stay walled up because we are too afraid to care too much, for fear that the other person does not care as much, or even not care at all.

Have you ever denied your feelings for someone because your fear of rejection was too hard to handle?

We tell lies when we are afraid... afraid of what we don't know, afraid of what others will think, afraid of what will be found out about us. But every time we tell a lie, the thing we fear grows stronger. Life is all about risks and it requires you to jump.

Don't be a person who has to look back and wonder what they would have done, or could have had.

"Think First Before You Act"

Happy Holiday!